Today

Well day started off pretty normal with some exceptions. The housekeeper called in sick and tomorrow she is off as well, so no house cleaning being done until monday. :-(

Dan and Christina were off to the hospital so she can have her gallbladder out. Ron was off so pretty much Denise and I had the place to our selves. Rare on a Thursday, but then I got the call from my sister. My mom hasn't woken up since yesterday. Seems when they put her on the pump they didn't take into account that she twitches. So she had the button in her hand and every time she twitched she was given a dose of pain meds. Not that this is a problem as it won't let her give herself to much, but they evaluate based on how often she hits the button. So they tripled the dosage based on her numbers. Well that kept her a sleep. So I had to rush in there and check on the situation and so my father could go home and get cleaned up and such. They turned back the dosage and now my mom is awake. So happy about that.

Not sure how I am feeling about all this. Its hard to watch her go though, but I know she is a strong woman always has been. I hope the pump will allow her to control her pain and give her some peace of mind and feeling of some control over her life. They say she may not have much longer. :-(

It is my wish that she isn't in pain and can be here when my grandson is born. So she can hold him and see him before she passes from this world, but I also know if she does go she will still be there to see him. Just would like it to be in the physical and not spiritual, but life will play out as life is to play out.

Still a little sad today, but put on the happy face for everyone. Just what I do. Its how I deal with pain in my life. I smile though it in public and frown in private.

So there is a beautiful moon out tonight. I may go bathe in it and drink in the Goddesses energy to sustain me.

Was going to make smoke neck, green beans, and potatoes for dinner, but got home from Gilchrist and didn't have time. So had a ham sandwich. :-) Denise ate on her way home from the hair dresser. I dreamt the other night she went back to red, but didn't mention it to her and sure enough she came home with red hair again. I like it, but then again doesn't matter to me what her hair color is. I just love her!

Talked to both Ryan and Ashley today. Not sure if Ashley is mad at me or not. She asked something of me I just can't grant right now. Ryan was just asking about plants and things for his house. He wants to dress up the outside and get his pond fixed up.

I watched today's episodes of Supernatural while eating dinner. Pretty good show sorry I didn't get into from the beginning, but still on so I catch up daily and then watch the new shows.

Just got my copy of Avatar in the mail today as well as Joan of Arcadia. I like Joan its a pretty cool show. Sorry it didn't last long.

Well off I go. Personal Trainer comes tomorrow morning at 8. Let see how bad she kicks my butt this time. Also have a cleaning service coming tomorrow to do a walk through to help out with the cleaning. Just a bit much for 1 person when we have 7 dogs and 5 cats. :-) Night all!