Saturday, May 1, 2010

Forgotten? I say NO!


Yesterday was very draining. Went to see my mother as the nurse said that her passing could be any day now. Today is her birthday so I am going to see her, but yesterday was very draining. Everyone was there since we didn't know how much longer she was going to be with us. My cousins Steph and Beth went out and got her a Birthday cake that was so sweet and wonderful of them. The reason for the cake a day early was that she was questioning why everyone was there. So we said to celebrate her birthday. I'm sure we didn't fool her one bit, but she played along like a trooper.

The reason I know she wasn't fooled is she talked to me and others alone. Here is what she said to me. First she said she loved me, then told me how much she appreciates how I am there for everyone when they need me. Told me how proud she was of me. She also told me to give her great grandson when he is born a kiss for her. Which tells me she knows she isn't going to be around for his birth. That was very hard for me to hear, but the worst part comes next. She said we forget. She said "WE FORGET". At that point I kind of broke down and cries. She told me not to and I told her it was silly to ask me to not cry when I know my mother is going to die. I love her and will morn the loss of her in my life, but I will also celebrate her life as well. She understood.

I then told her we do not forget. We will never forget. I told her we have pictures and stories that we will show and tell those who come after. We will talk and share with those of use who survive. We never forget those who have touched our life like she touched us. When I mentioned the pictures she said, "Oh yes pictures!"

Today I am going to remind her of the memorial garden I am creating. The one where I will put a plant, and picture of all the family members we have lost in my lifetime. They, she and everyone will never be forgotten! Everyone who comes to my property will see them as they drive in. They will be seen every day and will be remembered. They will never be forgotten. I will remind her of that today. She will never be forgotten ever! He grandchildren and great grandchildren and great great grandchildren will know of their family members and the garden will continue until it fills up all 23 aces of our property if necessary.

Pictures and video of our family exist in digital form, and online and all over. I will digitize all photos of our family and make sure they exist and are passed down. I will make sure we have video of our family members going forward. No one is ever going to forget. Not just our happy times, but the sad times as well. All the joy and pain in our lives need to be remembered. It will be there for every family member to share and enjoy and pass down.

We will remember! We will not forget! I love you mom and Happy 60th Birthday!

2 comments:

  1. You write so beautifully! I'm sorry to read that your going through such pains, and that your dear mother is preparing for her next path. She will always be with you, I occasionally smell Dad in the room, as if he just walks past to let me know he's still with me.

    ~ Happy Birthday Mrs. Bartlett!

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  2. This is beautiful Bunky. Keep writing. I held my pain for 15 years after my Mom went through this. It was only when I began writing about her life and passing did I finally begin to heal and sweet memories of her life began to become more alive and vibrant in my heart. She will always be with you. Have reverence for your healing. Celebrate the beauty of her life. Know that the heart never forgets.

    Happy Birthday Ms. Gwen <3

    Love you my friend <3
    -V-

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